I really hate having habits. Once one is developed, it’s so hard to break. I have certain times of the day that I have to follow the same routine or I am frantic. I get crabby and nervous and can actually get a stomach ace and headache. It only takes me a couple of times to get attached to something and then it takes weeks to get over it. Even if I don’t like the activity that I’m addicted to, I have to do it, and I have to do it at the same time every day. It’s so annoying sometimes.
For an example, Angry Birds. Now, don’t get me wrong, I like the game. It can be very entertaining. It’s just that I don’t always want to spend ten minutes doing it before I go to bed. Sometimes, I’m just too tired to play it and would rather just go to sleep. If I skip that ten minutes of angry birds, I can kiss sleep goodbye. All I will think about is that silly game. I’ve been working on that one by reducing the time I play and I’m about to the point I can give it up altogether.
In the early morning, and I do mean early (4:30 or so), the first thing I do is make coffee and grab my pop tarts. I’m always up for the coffee, but there are days I don’t really want the pop tarts. I’m not always hungry that early. Again, if I don’t eat them, it will drive me crazy! The box just sits on the shelve, taunting me. If I mess up that routine, won’t the whole day be a mess? That’s how it seems to me.
Even though I know the whole thing is not really rational, I can’t seem to get over it. I’m smart enough to know that if I skip pop tarts or a game, the world as I know it won’t stop. It still will send me into a minor panic attack and I just about shut down. I have to wean myself off the food or activity slowly.
I was really annoyed at myself this morning for being a total grouch just because my morning routine was interrupted. I thought maybe if I type it out, I will see how silly the whole thing is and it will be easier to change!
Do you have a routine you can’t seem to change?