One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching~~Gerard Way
In one of my quote search moods, I found this. It stuck in my mind. This morning I was imagining this happening. I let my life play like a movie in my head. I wish I had popped some popcorn first, so I would at least have had a tasty snack to enjoy while watching that very dull movie.
I’ve had some humorous things happen to me. I’ve had tragic things happen to me. I have had happy and sad moments. Just like everyone else. But, I have never really done anything. At least that’s how it feels. I wonder if most people feel this way as we get older? The old routine of what ifs and regrets.
Now that I had a chance to be a whiny little kid about it (I love to do that), what do I intend to do about it?
Ummm, I really don’t know yet. But, I will do something, mark my words!
First, I have to decide what I think my life is missing. What would I like to do that will spice up the whole end of life movie that I hear you get to see. What spice should I throw in?
I think I already have the answer to that, but I am scared to admit it. Why? Because it would mean me admitting to a very bad flaw in my character. I am kind of selfish. There, I said it. My whole adult life has been centered around me scrounging out a decent existence for my children and myself. My every effort has been centered around only my family. We all have to do this to a certain extent of course, but I really think we need to find time to reach out and help others. I truly believe most of us have that desire, it’s just hard to know what to do.
When this young girl in my care started doing fundraisers for children with cancer, it was a wonderful thing to be a part of. I think it helped fill in the gap in my personality that was missing. It does feel good to get outside of your own problems to help someone else deal with theirs. I believe we were meant to do that. We just forget while scrambling to survive.
I will figure out my own way of helping. Then, when I’m watching that end of life movie, there still won’t be much that is really exciting, but it might at least be a ‘feel good’ type of movie!
One of my favorite pictures of my mom and myself. We wore silly hats and matching blouses. We were on our way to a tea party a seven-year-old girl was having. It is a good memory. It’s also a very tiny picture, apparently.