You are very too old to set a new goal, or to dream a new dream. ~~C.S. Lewis
I sure hope this quote is true! I find myself at a crossroads, once again. I have been at crossroads many times in my life, but this time it is very terrifying for me. I am heading very quickly to fifty-seven years of age, and I don’t know how many more times I can take abrupt changes in life. I am tired just thinking about it.
A few years ago, my kids and I moved into my mother’s house with her. The economy had crapped out and I lost my business and my home. I really thought by now I would be established in my own place again, but life has a way of guiding you down other roads. My brother became very ill with cancer, and I was needed to get him to his many, many appointments. I avoided full-time employment on purpose to make sure I had ample time to do this. So, the two years I thought I would need to get back on my feet stretched into four years.
Now, my mother has decided she would like to sell the house and move someplace smaller and easier to handle. This house holds a lot of sad memories for her, and I don’t blame her for wanting to make a change. It really is a high maintenance property and is getting to be too much. She is going to move to another town and will have her own place right next to my sister. So, she will be taken care of and still have her privacy.
Once she is gone, I will have no ties here. I can go wherever I desire. My biggest hurdle is a lack of education and skills. I have watched children for almost thirty years now and I have no office skills. The very thought of being stuck at a desk gives me nightmares! As I age, people are starting to doubt my ability to keep up with the young kids. For me, the younger kids are very easy, it’s the older ones that are getting harder for me. This actually works in my favor, though.
I am going to start exploring options and decide where in the world I am going to end up! This is exciting and terrifying at the same time!
Do you think we are ever too old to start over? If you suddenly found your life completely open, what would you do?