Second Thoughts on my last Post!

So, I am now regretting posting the link to my very dark and depressing blog from my last post.  I went through some very horrible times in the past.  I still struggle, but not as much as I used to!  After my husband and son died, I think I just about went off the deep end.  There is about a 2 year period of time that I can barely remember anything.  The only thing I remember about the funeral is that they did a gun salute and I got a flag (he was a veteran).  Other than that, I couldn’t tell you much if anything about that whole time period.

Still, I shouldn’t have posted that blog.  I now see that someone could read it and think I might be a complete disaster.

Still, I really think that struggling with depression and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder has actually made me more sensitive to other people and their unique problems.  Since I have had a lot of experience with these issues through my own struggles and with a son who has OCD and daughter with severe social anxiety, I think I have more patience with the kids I care for as I see their struggles and take them seriously.  I have learned a lot about how to soothe myself and to calm myself, and I can guide an upset child through their emotions.  So, maybe it wasn’t all for nothing?

I hope you all are having a great week.  I do enjoy reading your blogs!





An Older Blogger Blog About Depression

I somehow had forgotten all about this blog of mine on Blogger.  Today, it popped into my head.  I went and read through it.  I started it a couple of years ago.  It was suggested that I write about my frustrations with OCD and depression as a means to let it all out.  I remember that it did help a bit.  I just wrote what I wanted to write and didn’t hold much back.  I did hold back a little, even though nobody was reading it.  Somehow, even the slightest possibility of someone seeing the blog made me pause just a little.

Today, I throw caution to the wind!  I am sharing things about my life that even my own family does not know.  We all have a side of us that we don’t like to share…with anyone!  I am going to share with all now.

IF you decide to read it, just know it might be very depressing and a bit dark.  But, that was the whole purpose of the blog.  Pull the darkness from my brain and stick it someplace else!