This is an example of how my nights go…
Me: I know it’s only 8:30, but I’m so tired I think I will just go to bed. “snore”
My brain: HEY!!!! It’s 9:10. Wake up!
Me: What was that? HUH? What time is it, I feel like it must be morning. I’m wide awake? Did I sleep? *looks at clock”. WTF I went to bed 40 minutes ago! Why am I awake?
My brain: I think you should get up! I don’t want to be in bed anymore. GET UP and move!!!!!!!
Me: I gotta get up a minute, I can’t stand being in bed right now. **pace, pace** Okay, it’s 10:30 I have to get some sleep or I will be no good at work tomorrow. *snore*
My brain: YOOHOO hi there, it’s me and I feel like thinking. It’s 1:00. Why are you sleeping? Get up and move!
Me: Oh bloody hell, why am I up with an anxiety attack at 1 in the dang morning? I have to be up in a few hours! **pace, pace** Okay it’s almost 2:30, I have to try to sleep a little more. *snore*
My brain: You know, I was just thinking…HEY wake up, I am trying to think of everything we need to do. Get up and move! It’s 3:20 for Pete sake. Why are you sleeping?
Me: I give up. I can’t do this anymore tonight.
This is actually how most of my nights go. Yes, I take Melatonin. I have also tried every sleep aid and no difference. I am so tired tonight, I hope I sleep! I think it’s been going on long enough that I now expect it and cause it to happen.
But, since I’m trying to be positive about more things, let me think of something positive about nights.
Got it! I was able to write a blog post about it. That’s the best I can do right now.
Have a good night, all.