I Might Be Tired

I suffer from insomnia and had a rough night last night.  I’ve held up pretty well today, but I think I might go to bed early tonight.

You know you’re tired when you are freaking out because you can’t get any sound on your computer.  You look through everything to make sure all settings are right and decide the computer is having issues.  You complain loudly and use a few bad words.

Then, you notice you didn’t turn on your speakers.

Yeah, going to bed early tonight.


Second Thoughts on my last Post!

So, I am now regretting posting the link to my very dark and depressing blog from my last post.  I went through some very horrible times in the past.  I still struggle, but not as much as I used to!  After my husband and son died, I think I just about went off the deep end.  There is about a 2 year period of time that I can barely remember anything.  The only thing I remember about the funeral is that they did a gun salute and I got a flag (he was a veteran).  Other than that, I couldn’t tell you much if anything about that whole time period.

Still, I shouldn’t have posted that blog.  I now see that someone could read it and think I might be a complete disaster.

Still, I really think that struggling with depression and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder has actually made me more sensitive to other people and their unique problems.  Since I have had a lot of experience with these issues through my own struggles and with a son who has OCD and daughter with severe social anxiety, I think I have more patience with the kids I care for as I see their struggles and take them seriously.  I have learned a lot about how to soothe myself and to calm myself, and I can guide an upset child through their emotions.  So, maybe it wasn’t all for nothing?

I hope you all are having a great week.  I do enjoy reading your blogs!